I've had a few jobs in my lifetime. Being 30 years old, I've had jobs from really fun ones to the not so fun ones. But with every job I've ever had, I have quit due to either moving or to needing more time for school. or because I simply couldn't stand it there anymore.
But one thing was, I have never been fired or let go. Until now......
My heart sank when I heard the news last week. I was pulled into the conference room with a few head managers and was told that they needed to let a few people go due to the economy. People just aren't buying maps anymore with the technology of GPS and such. And customers aren't buying as much because they can't afford to.
So they had to choose people to let go and sadly, I was one of them. It hurt a lot. I cried. My manager even looked like he had cried. They said it had nothing to do with my production or work. It simply was because the company is going under and my name was drawn out of a hat to be the one to go.
As much as I didn't like the people I worked with {for the most part..I liked a few there} but I loved the job itself. It was my first professional job in my field that I had worked at. I had been there almost six years. I did enjoy being a cartographer. I really did.
My boss said because he respected me so much as a person and employee, he would do anything I needed to help me get a new job somewhere and put in a good reference. He told me it was not his decision to let me go and was upset it had to be me. There were a lot more people that really deserved to be let go before me. That is what makes me the most angry about the situation. But what's done is done.
I had so much anger about it last week, I can't tell you how much I cried and lost sleep for those first two nights. As most of you may know, I was the only one working to support the family. I was the career mom and my husband is the stay at home dad. So when I heard this, I sat and worried how were we going to afford our finances and bills? How would our family survive? How could I stay calm and sane about this?
Now that a week has passed, I'm better about the situation. As much as it sucks losing a really good career job, I have to say I really love being a stay at home mom to my children. Especially with the baby. I never have been able to stay at home with my children. My daughter is six years old and this is my first time being with her after school and getting time with her. And now the baby too.
I really love it a lot. It's hard, I get frustrated at times because I'm not used to it but I'm learning to really enjoy it. I am seeing an upside finally to losing my job. And now, since we are both stay at home parents, it's easier with the two of us. Although, my husband now takes a lot more breaks and goes out since I'm home now.
Because of this situation, our money is going to run out eventually and so we've decided on a big major event that will happen to our family soon. We are making a huge move halfway across the country. Out of Florida and to Missouri where I'm from.
I'll write about that another time. But it sucks to have lost a great career but now I'm trying to be the mom I always wanted to be to my children. And it hasn't been easy. Some days have been harder then others, but overall, I really love it.
I'm so sorry you lost your job - something equally amazing (hopefully with more amazing people to work with) will come up! Until then, ENJOY your time with your husband and children!
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry to hear this. The same thing happened to my dad a few years ago. It is really tough. I hope you enjoy your time with your family, and I know you will find something else soon!
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry to hear about this. I know it will be a very challenging time, but maybe it was meant for something bigger and better to come along. <3 You will be in my thoughts and prayers.
ReplyDeleteEnjoy the time you are spending with your husband and children, which I know you will. :)
I am sorry about the loss of your job. I was downsized at a job in 2007. It was very hard to handle. Thinking of you!
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry this happened so unexpectedly, but I'm happy you are keeping your head high & are embracing the new changes coming your way! There is always a silver lining, the hubs & I have gone through this so I know it's hard to stay positive sometimes, but you have to remember all the good stuff!! Keep us posted! ♥
ReplyDeleteI wasn't expecting this to happen and even though I knew that there were parts of the job that you hated it was still a job and still a way of supporting your family so that must have been upsetting for you. I understand it's not much comfort but it sounds like it really really hurt them to tell you you were going and the fact that your manager is willing to do everything in his power to get you a new job is at least something. Even saying that though, it's annoying your name was involved in the hat in the first place, you recently became a mother again for goodness sake! Hopefully you're okay though Rebecca and things work out, keep your head up.
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear that you lost your job. There must be something bigger and better for you.
ReplyDeleteKeep your head up!!
Nonny
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I really wish this hadn't happened to you and your family. Especially since you loved what you did. It's great that you can find a bright spot in all of it. That's a big move, but maybe being closer to your family will be a blessing.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry! My husband lost his job last month. He was over a project at one of the nation's largest banks that involved foreclosure reviews and when a blanket settlement was reached between the banks and the federal regulators, the project ended and he and about 350 people that worked with him all lost their jobs. I'll be praying for you that you're able to find something you love! I know {second hand} what you're going through!
ReplyDeleteSending you prayers and a hug ((Rebecca)) -Marci @ Stone Cottage Adventures
ReplyDeleteSorry about losing your job. I love that you have started making other considerations. Good luck!
ReplyDeleteHow horrible for you. But you are right that something great may be just around the corner. Good luck
ReplyDeletewow i am so sorry to hear this! this is certainly a tough time and i wish the best for you and your family! hopefully it will all work out - good luck!! xx
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wow i am so sorry to hear this! this is certainly a tough time and i wish the best for you and your family! hopefully it will all work out - good luck!! xx
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So sorry to hear about the job loss, but what a wonderful attitude you have now :)
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry to hear your lost your job, its a hard thing to go through. Its fantastic that you've found the positives in the situation. Those are what keep you going.
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