I wanted to first take the time to say to everyone how appreciative and amazing you guys have been to me. All the love and support through everything has lifted my heart so greatly through all this that had been going on with my baby.
All the comments are so wonderful and I do read each and every single one. And All the kind words can't express how thankful I am to have you all in my life {whether I know you personally before the blog or after the blog}. You are all very dear to me.
If you are just tuning in and need an update, please go to my previous post about this called The First Week. I couldn't show photos in my post about it because of how personal the photos were. It tells the story from the beginning of what has happened since I had the baby. So I left off how my little baby had to have emergency surgery and I stayed by his side non-stop, day and night as much as I could for the first days leading up to his first week of life.
So on the day he turned a week old {which was also my due date for him} I was with him all morning in the hospital. I was finally holding him and feeding him with a bottle and getting to sit there and cuddle on my brand new baby. Life at home seemed fine even though my daughter was taking it very bad.
I would come home in the afternoons and be with her when she got out of school. She would draw pictures of the baby and then lay on the floor crying and screaming for him. It made me cry a lot because I wanted him home too. That night my stress level went even higher. My husband and I have had a lot of ups and downs. And I thought possibly with the birth of our son, things would bring us closer together especially since our little boy was going through so much right now. I don't like to talk about my relationship or marriage but I found he hadn't been as faithful to me as I thought he was.
We have had these issues in the past and they happen more often then they should. Which is not something that I like talking about. But I found things and that night every part of me failed. I felt like a failed mother who blamed herself non stop for what was happening to my baby and what did I do to have him deserve this. And then I felt like a failed wife because I thought I was doing everything right to make my husband happy. So then the arguments began. But differently then the other ones. I was so worn down, so defeated, so stressed from everything going on in my life, I just took it and decided maybe this needed to be it. Maybe we needed to end things and move on. I couldn't take all the bad news one after the other. But for the first time in all the years we have been together, the first time through the fights, he said things to me that made me feel he really was sorry and genuinely cared.
But that still didn't make me feel better. I was still so upset. I left early in the morning to go to the hospital. I needed to be with my baby boy really bad now. Holding him would make me feel better. For a while, I messaged back and forth with my husband about things and he still kept saying the same things that sounded like he was truly sorry. I kept telling him it's not going to work, but I really wanted it to. So we are trying to make our marriage happy and strong again for the sake of us and our children Because deep inside, he really loves me more then anything.
So back to the baby....each day he seemed to progress more and more. I always asked non-stop when do they think he will be coming home. I never got an answer because it was still too early to really know. But the surgeons and doctor's looked at him each morning and if I wasn't there yet, would call me with updates of tell me when I arrived at the hospital. Slowly, they started taking him off machines as he showed he could be stable without them. He finally started to look like my little baby boy again.
Here's some photos of me and him together during that week at the hospital. He still had tubes and cords and machines, but not as many and he looked more alive now that he was finally eating and breathing on his own and using the bathroom. I only wanted to show photos of him wrapped up. His stomach and chest were all still bandaged up and had IVs all over.
I also that week took a post-pregnancy photo. You can compare the two. The first one you guys saw on my pregnancy posts. I was 39 weeks and that was also the same day he was born. The second photo is two weeks after he was born. My post preggo body.
So it was the week of Thanksgiving and our baby boy was turning two weeks old that day. So we decided to do Thanksgiving on Wednesday and then go see him all day Thursday and be with him not only on his two week birthday, but on his first holiday as well.
So on the morning of Thanksgiving, we were all getting ready to head over and see our little guy. I was finishing packing up his stuff since they said we could bring him a cute outfit to wear and I had milk they needed and I was bringing him some books so I could read to him and my daughter.
Then the phone rang. It was the hospital so I grabbed it and it was his surgeon calling me. He said that he looked him over this morning and there really wasn't much else he felt they needed to do or watch. They went ahead and removed all the IVs, tubes, cords, and machines from him and he has been doing well on his own. He feels we could come bring him home today.
I started crying saying "for real?" Normally a baby who had that extensive of surgery would be in the NICU for at least a month. But he was healing so fast, they thought he would do just fine at home in our care. I was so thrilled. I could not believe the news. So I unpacked some of the stuff and only brought what I would need to bring him home with.
So we left and our little guy looked great. He looked just like my baby. No cords or anything on him or running up under his skin anymore. It was amazing. The best Thanksgiving I could ever ask for. So they let me put him in his turkey outfit my parents bought for him and we took him home wearing that. My little turkey butt :0)
And here are some photos of our homecoming. We were so happy and proud our little guy was finally coming home and we were going to be a happy little family with the four of us now.
So we now just have lots of doctor's appointments for him now to go to for a while and strict rules we have to go by for his health. But so far, he has made it known he is home and does not let us sleep at all :0)
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I'm so sorry you had to go through this! My youngest was in the NICU for 3 days after he was born. It was pretty much the hardest thing I've ever had to go through. So glad your little man is at home now!
ReplyDeleteYour post brought tears to my eyes! I am so glad you got to bring your son home!! I could not imagine having to go through that, you are one tough momma!! I hope things between you & your husband only get better as each day passes. Keep your head up girl :)
ReplyDeleteI am so happy to read this! You're so strong and you're little man is amazing! <3 to you! xoxo
ReplyDeleteAdoreable! Congratulations! And you look gorgeous! Thanks for hosting the blog hop!
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Oh I am glad he is home with you all now, my nephew wore that cute little turkey butt outfit on Thanksgiving too!
ReplyDeleteI'm overjoyed to read that things are going better now Rebecca. Your baby is so adorable and hopefully he has a healthy and happy life ahead of him. You look fantastic two weeks later after birth as well, you're not a failed mummy or a failed wife at all so don't be worried!
ReplyDeleteI wish I lived by you so I could give you a big hug and a Starbucks coffee!! I am so happy that your little sweetie is doing so well. You are an amazing mother and woman. Your strength is such a gift to your daughter.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry that you have had to deal with marital issues on top of watching your sweet Reggie go through surgery. Please remember that you are loved by God, family, friends, and your blogging girls.
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Much love to you. You are beautiful inside and out. xoxo
Amazing post so filled with love and concern ~ your baby and family are beautiful and I am sending lots of healing hugs for all ~ (A Creative Harbor ^_^)
ReplyDeleteI was so happy when I found out that he was home for Thanksgiving! I'm definitely sending up prayers for you and the hubby. It's never easy having to deal with issues of unfaithfulness in any relationship but especially marriage. I pray that he is really committed to changing and staying true to you and upholding the vows you all made to each other.
ReplyDeleteYou are one strong woman. Don't ever let anything or anyone make you feel less than that!
Ohh woooww!! What awesome news! I am SO pleased.
ReplyDeleteMy prayers to you all that he continues to get better and that his health continues to improve. This post touched my heart and brought tears to my eyes. He is absolutely adorable.
ReplyDeleteI am a new follower. I found you through a blog hop, glad I did! I look forward to reading your posts and am now following you! Come on by the Aloha Friday Blog hop and link up with us too!! It's easy and you could end up being next week's featured blogger!!
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I am so sorry you had to endure all of this. He is precious though and you are so strong! Thank you for sharing your story
ReplyDeleteHow awesome for him to come home so soon! He really is quite the little turkey butt. I want to just snuggle him up.
ReplyDeleteMy daughter was born at 27 weeks and spent 2 months in the NICU, several times on the edge of life...I know how frightening it can be. I think you handled it all with grace. You are a strong, wonderful mother and the turkey butt is going to be a strong, healthy boy without a doubt.
As for your husband...mine and I have had similar issues, though I always blog that everything is peaches and cream. If you ever need a friend - chances are pretty good mine's done the same damn thing.
Hugs.
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Rena
Aww poor baby. At least he is better now.
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Im so sorry you had to go through this but....your baby is absolutely BEAUTIFUL and I am so happy he is home with his family <3
ReplyDeleteSuch wonderful news to read that he is recovering and home! What a Thanksgiving.
ReplyDeleteOh Rebecca what a heartfelt post! Gave me chills and made me teary...I wish your adorable little family the best, whatever that may be...
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Paula
Thank you for sharing your story with us. Your family is precious!
ReplyDelete-Karen
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So incredibly happy for you! I'm glad to have you back on our link sharing the joys and struggles of what you have been going through!
ReplyDeleteYou are AMAZING!!!
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You have a beautiful family,thanks for sharing with us at Welcome to the weekend hop.Now following back take care
ReplyDeleteYour post was very heartfelt. Your honesty is so refreshing. My son was born 3 weeks ago and had to spend 5 days in the NICU and it was beyond difficult. During that time my husband and I went through a difficult time. He was not putting us first and my hormonal self didn't deal with it in the way I wish I had. I'm very glad that your little one is home.
ReplyDeleteI am so glad you linked up this post to Raising Imperfection, thanks for linking with us each week'
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Oh love, my prayers go out to you are your family.
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What a precious boy. He is beautiful and so is his mama! SO glad you were able to take him home! {hugs}
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