Where The Heck Have I Been? - xoxo Rebecca

Where The Heck Have I Been?

Seriously, I have been a bit MIA and I haven't wanted to. Ever since our move to Missouri, things have not been all glitz and glamour. In fact, it has been far from that. Taking away from time to blog as well as a lot of things.
I've talked to so many people and when they say, "I could never live with my parents. I love them, but I couldn't move back in" .... I always felt a strange feeling. I would always say how lucky I felt that I could live back home with my parents with no problem.
Boy, how that hasn't been a piece of cake to say anymore.
I thought it may be a bit of a challenge trying to get us all into my parents house, but I never imagined it would be how it was. I figured there would be some arguments here and there but you know, it would be normal. No....
I don't know what has happened, but my dad has flipped out on us so many times. Even on our very first day here, he kicked us out of the house and told us to get the hell out. We have now been here almost four weeks and it's been happening at least once a week where we are kicked out with no where to go. Except a hotel with money we don't have.
I don't know why he keeps flipping his lid, but it has become so uncomfortable here, we are doing everything we can to get our own place and move out. I don't know why he brought us all the way from Florida for all the drama. We could have just stayed where we were. My mom promised me things would be so much easier if we moved up here....
It's been almost a pure nightmare. We are never in the house anymore except to put the kids to bed. We go driving around and go to the park and just stores just so we don't have to be home. It's so frustrating..
We've been having appointments everyday with different people looking at homes to rent, but so far, we haven't had any "official word" we were approved for anything. I hope so soon. We are looking at more tomorrow as well in the morning.
So that's the reason why I haven't really been around as much as I would like to. We just have been trying to avoid being here except when my parents are here. And I really do hate that my dad has been acting this way for some reason. My mom wants me to ignore it, but it's too hard. He just says the most meanest things to us and so why would we want to stay? There was even a point the first week we were here where we started to sell all our belongings just so we could get enough money to drive back to Florida. So as you can imagine, it's been pretty stressful.
The husband has been actively looking for jobs just so it will be easier to move out. We have enough money to get our own place, just still need someone to say, "hey, you were approved!" A few friends have been helping out trying to get him jobs where they work so that has been really sweet and helpful.
I'm so behind on emails, on getting back with people...and I really hate that sooo much. It wouldn't be this way if things were going a bit differently. And I hope things start to look up soon. Cause it's no fun.

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xoxo Rebecca