You Don't Work Here Anymore - xoxo Rebecca

You Don't Work Here Anymore

I've had a few jobs in my lifetime. Being 30 years old, I've had jobs from really fun ones to the not so fun ones. But with every job I've ever had, I have quit due to either moving or to needing more time for school. or because I simply couldn't stand it there anymore.

But one thing was, I have never been fired or let go. Until now......

My heart sank when I heard the news last week. I was pulled into the conference room with a few head managers and was told that they needed to let a few people go due to the economy. People just aren't buying maps anymore with the technology of GPS and such. And customers aren't buying as much because they can't afford to.

So they had to choose people to let go and sadly, I was one of them. It hurt a lot. I cried. My manager even looked like he had cried. They said it had nothing to do with my production or work. It simply was because the company is going under and my name was drawn out of a hat to be the one to go.

As much as I didn't like the people I worked with {for the most part..I liked a few there} but I loved the job itself. It was my first professional job in my field that I had worked at. I had been there almost six years. I did enjoy being a cartographer. I really did. 

My boss said because he respected me so much as a person and employee, he would do anything I needed to help me get a new job somewhere and put in a good reference. He told me it was not his decision to let me go and was upset it had to be me. There were a lot more people that really deserved to be let go before me. That is what makes me the most angry about the situation. But what's done is done.

I had so much anger about it last week, I can't tell you how much I cried and lost sleep for those first two nights. As most of you may know, I was the only one working to support the family. I was the career mom and my husband is the stay at home dad. So when I heard this, I sat and worried how were we going to afford our finances and bills? How would our family survive? How could I stay calm and sane about this?

Now that a week has passed, I'm better about the situation. As much as it sucks losing a really good career job, I have to say I really love being a stay at home mom to my children. Especially with the baby. I never have been able to stay at home with my children. My daughter is six years old and this is my first time being with her after school and getting time with her. And now the baby too.

I really love it a lot. It's hard, I get frustrated at times because I'm not used to it but I'm learning to really enjoy it. I am seeing an upside finally to losing my job. And now, since we are both stay at home parents, it's easier with the two of us. Although, my husband now takes a lot more breaks and goes out since I'm home now.

Because of this situation, our money is going to run out eventually and so we've decided on a big major event that will happen to our family soon. We are making a huge move halfway across the country. Out of Florida and to Missouri where I'm from.

I'll write about that another time. But it sucks to have lost a great career but now I'm trying to be the mom I always wanted to be to my children. And it hasn't been easy. Some days have been harder then others, but overall, I really love it.
xoxo Rebecca