thirty-one weeks - xoxo Rebecca

thirty-one weeks

THURSDAY 09.13.12

Hello World! Well, today is the 31 week mark in my pregnancy. Only 9 weeks to go now. Not that much longer. And I'm ready. I am so ready. But I'm utterly terrified now. I wasn't before but now I am.

I spoke to my doctor about the possibilities of an epidural. I needed to know what it was all about and how it went down. I was deeply terrified of them so I had my daughter in my first pregnancy 100% all natural before, during, and after. And I must say, I never want to go through a natural childbirth again. I did it once, I don't think I could again.
So I spoke to him about my fears. I had heard nothing but horror stories from people saying things like you can easily be paralyzed permanently, you have back problems for the rest of your life, they do it wrong and have to do it several times, you hear popping sounds, the list actually goes on and on about all the horror stories I have been told by people.

However, during my surgery last week, they had me endure a spinal tap and that scared the shit out of me. But I made it out alive I am confident now I would be ok with getting an epidural for this delivery. However, me and the husband don't see eye to eye on this. He is against it and wants me to have an all natural birth again. So we go back and forth about it.

The reason he's not liking the idea is because if you guys remember, last week I was in emergency surgery for an almost exploding appendix at 30 weeks pregnant. You can read my scary story HERE about how crazy and unexpected it was. And because I was on meds and stuff {which we are the type to be against medication, vaccines, etc}, he doesn't want me to take anything else or have anything else because so much was pumped into my system last week at the hospital. Which I feel the same way but I would like to not have to go through another childbirth naturally again.

So since I was in the hospital all last week, I couldn't do a 30 week update so I'm skipping to this week. So it's been two weeks since you guys have had an update from me. Let me just give you an update on how I'm doing since surgery. I have finally been able to get up off the couch without assistance. I have walked almost unassisted around the house, gone to the bathroom all by myself. Though after about being up for about 30 seconds, I have to stop and lean again things or grab something to put my weight onto. The weight of my belly pulling on the staples starts to really burn. I'm getting the staples out tomorrow. Dreading that.
I took a shower almost today all by myself. I have to lean against the wall though for balance and I still cannot bend to wash my back nor my legs so I need assistance with that. But I'm a lot better then I was last week, that's for sure.

I had a doctor's appointment today for the baby. The heartbeat is still sounds good. Baby seems to be measuring good. From the ultrasound at my surgery visit, the baby is now exactly 3 pounds and 16 inches long. So staying at the normal growth rate. Not too big, not too small...he or she is just perfect!
My next appointment I have an ultrasound! I love those. Can't wait to see baby again! I did find out the baby has turned now and is head down.

A few exciting things have happened since my last pregnancy update. One: My best friend {who is also the host of my gender reveal shower} came up over Labor Day weekend and we went and she bought a bunch of stuff for the shower. I have been finding more and more ideas and things on what to do for decorations and crafts. I think this will be a beautiful shower and I can't wait!
And two: We got our first baby gift this week. So exciting. Since I have been out of work, one of my co-workers bought me a gift and it was brought to the house. I was so happy and excited. Our baby's first gift! Here is a photo of what we received:
How far along? 31 weeks pregnant! (7 months) Baby due November 15
Total weight gain/measurements: I lost 3 pounds since last update {+14 all together}
Size Of Baby: Pineapple (16 inches long, 3 lbs)

Sleep: Sleep has really sucked since surgery. I'm up all hours because of the crazy hours I have to set my alarm to wake up to take the meds {antibiotics}
Maternity clothes: Mostly wearing all maternity dresses now. Still blazing hot outside.
Stretch marks? It looks like I finally got a few. I think some are from my surgery too.
Best moment this week: Receiving our very first baby gift.
Miss anything? Just being pregnant and not having to have surgery last week. Recovery has sucked and painful.
Movement: Since the surgery, I have actually felt the baby a lot more. It seems to only want to kick me where my appendix used to be which is really painful.
Cravings?: Still haven't had any.
Anything making you queasy or sick? Just some smells.
Labor signs: Not at all. They checked my cervix and it is hard and 3cm long. Baby isn't coming anytime soon.
Symptoms: No pregnancy symptoms that I can tell. All surgery related pain has taken over.
Belly button in or out? In. I've never been an outtie even while pregnant.
Happy or moody most of the time: Well, miserable. Until I feel better. Had some really happy moments this week though.
Baby related purchases?: We haven't made a purchase ourselves yet. I'm excited when we do.
Looking forward to: My 33 week ultrasound. I can't wait to see little baby bean again. And of course when I'm feeling back to myself again and can really move and do normal stuff without screaming in pain.

Don't forget to check out the poll at the top on my sidebar to vote what you think the baby's gender is going to be. Can't wait to find out!

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