twenty weeks - xoxo Rebecca

twenty weeks

I have to apologize for being so absent from blogging this week, facebook, and twitter. This week was a very hard and emotional week for me. I don't want to get into too many personal details but somethings happened and stuff came out and it looked as though we were going to be going through the process of a  divorce. Anyone that has been hurt so bad in a situation from the person they love would understand. It's so emotionally draining and just a huge mess full of fighting, nasty words and just scary.
So it has been just very hard for me to be social while this was all going on this week. We are trying to work things out to stay together because the bottom line is, we are both very much in love with each other but growing apart and I didn't realize just how unhappy he was in the situation. But I'm glad we are willing to try one more time. If it doesn't work out this time, we both agreed it was best to go our seperate ways though it would be one of the hardest things I would have to do in my life.
So things are slowly patching up and trying hard to make this work. Marriage is not easy. Anyone that claims it is is a liar for sure.

Ok, anyway, onto the real topic of this post..............

We are officially at the twenty week mark in this pregnancy. Yea! Half way through and excited about that. This pregnancy still feels as if it going slow. My next appointment is in three weeks. I'm sure it will be a quick one. Nothing special or exciting I think will be happening. But if it does, I'll let you know.
So here's whats going on this week:



So as you saw above, this week has been very emotional for me. I didn't eat for a few days and stressed out so much...not to mention the endless crying. Which I know is not good at all for anyone. So I lost a few pounds but the last couple of days has been better and I've been eating again and gaining my appetite so I gained back the weight I lost.

I'm now officially at a fourteen pound weight gain which kind of scares me but the nurse said I'm doing good with my weight so I guess no need to worry there. That is from week one til now. I also still am not getting very much sleep at all. I thought pregnant women were so exhausted all they want to do is sleep and sleep long and hard. Why is then my body has only allowed two hours every night since I got pregnant? Stupid brain not wanting me to sleep I guess.

I have to tell you, all the things they say pregnancy does to a person as far as side effects have been 100% opposite for me. I do not get back pains, no heart burn, skin cleared up, poop more then I ever have before {in any case that is TMI but true}, no leg cramps. The only symptoms I have gotten are the nausea, the headaches, the exhaustion, and the dizziness.

So here is my photo for this week:

So I guess that's about it for now. Hopefully next week goes a whole lot better then this week. Here are some funny pregnancy things I found. Enjoy!

xoxo Rebecca